A Little Denial
08/07/12 20:57
A little denial can be a good thing. I found I couldn’t deny that I had breast cancer, or that I needed the chemotherapy. But I could, and did, deny that this disease would be the defining part of my life. That’s why after one visit I chose not to participate in support groups. I saw that they would foster identification with the disease. My life was not / is not breast cancer.
My life was, as it is now, my creative life, my spiritual life, my family and friends, my job. I had to accommodate some of that to the fatigue that came with treatment, but I continued to work full time and made time at home for some positive and creative work, even if in small increments.
I am blessed that the lab tests after surgery showed no cancer! I look on this as a multi-tier healing: physical, mental and spiritual. And an important part of my contribution to that healing was my denial of the dominion of disease.
My life was, as it is now, my creative life, my spiritual life, my family and friends, my job. I had to accommodate some of that to the fatigue that came with treatment, but I continued to work full time and made time at home for some positive and creative work, even if in small increments.
I am blessed that the lab tests after surgery showed no cancer! I look on this as a multi-tier healing: physical, mental and spiritual. And an important part of my contribution to that healing was my denial of the dominion of disease.
